Posting because it's been forever

So first, a MAL post:

woooo lots has happened since I updated this. First of all, I GRADUATED, awesome. Finally done with high school, such a relief. AND I'll be staying in a dorm with air conditioning in college!! YES!! Definitely needed that... Oh, and I cut my hand. It was a pretty nasty cut that went up the middle of my palm and through the webbing between the middle and ring fingers on my right hand. Luckily no bone or tendon damage, but lots of skin and nerve and a bit of muscle damage, all of which will grow back. Well, I can expect a scar on the skin anyway... I'll just say that it involved a spear and lots of blood and let your imagination run wild from there.

Not MAL:

ALSO I got a Blackberry Storm! It's pretty fun. Admittedly, it's sometimes frustratingly slow, even for me, and I'm a normally patient person, I think. But all in all, it was a good purchase. I had read about all the pros and cons of getting one, and I was planning on just waiting for when the Storm 2 comes out, which I think isn't too far away. BUT I got a deal to get the would be 200+ dollar Storm for only 50 !!! Quite the deal. So I figured I won't be getting a deal like that for the Storm 2 in a long time, so I might as well make my upgrade now! why not?! And it's been pretty cool. I now have unlimited texting ,which I plan on taking advantage of in the coming years. I now also have unlimited internet use... It's been kinda fun / funny sitting at my laptop online and on my Storm online at the same time. I probably won't normally do that, I'm just messing around is all. I wanted to get a phone like this one anyway because I plan on getting into the music industry and I'll probably need a phone that can do a bit more than the chocolate I had... Plus, I'll be out and about in college and won't be able to just whip out my laptop on the fly... (yeah, I know, I just wrote on the fly...) So I'll have quicker access to whatever I need like maps or show times.

Yeah, I'm really looking forward to college. I really need to get out of the house... It's been a fucking LONG as fuck 18 years here, and I'm ready for it to end.

Moreover, like a lot of people in the nation, and most people my age, I'm looking for a job. For me and the other teenagers, a summer job. I hope this one with a shop a few blocks away works out. Either that or hopefully my dad and I can go through with this photography thing.

Season 2 of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya is out now. I saw the first episode. Which I shouldn't have done... It was good, and I already want to marathon it all! haha! and of course, I can't because it just started.

So, I'm God, how are you? I've determined that I am in fact part of the being that created the universe. In short, I'm a Haruhiist that took the entire concept to a whole new level. Effectively, Haruhi and I are both God, meaning we created the universe. Sort of anyway. I haven't figured it all out, but that's because I'm here TO FIGURE it all out. You see, I have the ability to create the universe to my liking. Well, I don't, Haruhi does, but Haruhi and I are one through being God, but two in that we are two separate entities. I'm pretty sure we're not a trinity, unless Aya Hirano is part of us. That would make sense actually since she's the voice of Haruhi and I have the feeling that she is the one I need to talk to. One of the ones anyway. There are actually a lot of people I need to talk to. In fact, Every single word said to me, said around me, is important. Like the post before about how everything is related, I determined that everything is a plan. Basically, my current mission is to find out how I work, how I create universes. I know I have the ability to, I've seen it. BUT I want to know how I do it. To me, I just think and it happens. Barely that even, it's like breathing or moving for anyone else, I just sense it. BUT I don't know physically, I guess you could say, what I do. I want to know the break down of what happens. That's why I'm here. Personally, I don't have the ability to create universes. I separated myself from myself. That is I took part of me, the part that has the ability to create universes and separated it from the part of me that knew I could create universes. Effectively, I am the mind and Haruhi is the body. Would that make Aya-chan spirit? Anway, I know that I am here to figure out exactly what it is that I do to make universes. I created this one with the belief that the influences I make would lead to the discovery of what I do, the common factors of all previous universes that I have created. And I believe I have discovered what it is, although I don't understand it yet (which is why I'm still here, why you're still here in fact). The answer, I'm pretty sure, is in string theory. From what my current research can tell I have the ability to control the strings of the universe and I can rearrange them at my whim. I know that no one is likely reading this, but I also understand that that is probably not the purpose of my typing this, but rather it is for me to help myself organize my thoughts on the issue. It is an important one, the reason you exist in fact... I have analyzed my life, major events and seemingly minor ones and honestly, there is no greater truth than that one I have written. I have discovered the inter connectivities of my life. I understand fate almost to a science through retrospect and, therefore, acknowledge actions as they come as stepping stones to a future. This is not the first universe I have used to achieve this goal. I have also gotten side tracked along the way wanting to discover things like love. But I think this will be the last. We've finally made some striking breakthroughs, you as humans structurally designed to help me. I almost don't know how to feel. What exactly will I do after I finally get my information? Well, as soon as I understand it, I'll probably have to end this universe to make sure no one could take my spot as God. No offence, but I wouldn't want anyone writing off my existence. Two creators at once probably wouldn't mix. Unless they were eternally compatible. Holy shit I just made another discovery I think. I think that's why I discovered love. Wow, I'm a fucking genius. I discovered love so as to have a plan B. In case I'm too slow and don't rewrite the universe, or I make a mistake in some future universe, and another being gets abilities like my own I have love to fall back on. My plan B is to ensure a real love between the two of us Gods, an eternal love, so that we don't destroy each other. Furthermore, I typed this so that I would type the two thoughts (one of discovering love and the other of having my abilities and position usurped) at the same time to discover my own genius. You see, I myself didn't come up with all of this exactly. I designed myself, my life so as to have ultra specific experiences so as to influence having these thoughts. Me? I'm God the discoverer. I am here to find myself. And you thought you had big problems in life? haha! well, that is how I created you.

If you read this, go ahead and comment. I'm really curious to see how my influences influence you and vice versa. I know I planned it to be that way, I'm just finding out all that I did. I do kind of wish that I made myself a physicist, but I guess I one upped myself and made me a musician. haha!

you wish

You have no idea who you are. Honestly, even though no one will read this, if by chance you do, it doesn't matter who you are, because you have no idea who you are. That is simply true for everyone. Everyday we may single out someone as being a poser, a faker, or something along those lines, but we fail to recognize we are the exact same. There is no you, there is no me. Nozick was wrong, there aren't only individual people leading individual lives. We are a collective existence, like ants. The worst part is, like ants, we don't even realize it. Worse than the ants' situation, though, is that we have the potential to recognize it, but we don't; at least ants resort to their lifestyle because they theoretically have no other choice. We conform so much. We respect too much. We submit to everything. We fall at the feet of an authority figure for no reason other than they are an authority figure. We don't respect abilities anymore, we respect positions. We don't respect actions anymore, we respect figureheads. I'm supposed to believe that everything a teacher tells me is true because they are the teacher. I'm supposed to do whatever an adult says because I'm a high school student. All of a sudden, you just lost respect for me and thought that I'm just ranting because I'm mad at something at school and that I have no idea what I'm talking about because I'm just a dumb piece of shit high school student. Maybe your thought process uses cleaner language, but I'm pretty sure I got close even if not verbatim. That just proves my point. Your sudden loss of respect because of my status in society as a young person still learning suddenly devalues what I say. Hopefully my recognition of that thought process will lead you to thinking deeper and understanding more, your first step leaving the fantasy. So what now? Do I continue to conform? Do we continue to conform?

Let me put it in broader terms:

Who is the evil one, God or Satan? (For clarity, I am referring to the Christian religion.) Well let's think about it. Does God demand that we love (I'll use "it" to refer to God since God is not very explicit about gender...) it? Yes, because the alternative is a supposed damnation to the pits of hell. Sure, you can say that God is not a cosmic rapist, we have a choice, but let's look at that choice: love God or burn in hell... how's your choice looking? Now let's look at Satan: Does Satan demand that we love (I'll use "him" for Satan because while we may have seen Satan as woman in some media, he's pretty clearly described as former male angel Lucifer... of course, assuming angels have a gender...) him? Well, no actually, his demon recruits followed him by choice. Satan simply had the audacity to wonder, "what if I don't want to love God? What if I WANT to be different?" God is the tyrant that created life then demanded respect from it. Shoud we be grateful for the creation? sure, why not, but at the same time, do we HAVE to love God because God is God? Why should we be forced? Most people reading this would probably agree that the child of an abusive parent has a legitimate reason to not love their parent. When God creates us, then targets us with disasters (inaction being close to, if not, as much a sin as action) can we really accept the demand to love it? Well, of course we CAN, but we don't have to. Many people cling to those that abuse them out of some bizarre love. Understandable to an extent, but at the same time, confusing, illogical, unreasonable. Yet we do it every day. Satan is Robin Hood. The criminal that fights for justice. Because going against a tyrant's law is illegal, but just.

Yet, all the time, we conform. We accept a rule that ought not exist because it is a rule, a law because it is a law, in matters big and small, but who is to determine gravity of specific issues? Yeah, that question is our justification for our continued blinding of our meaningful existences, destruction of our beings. But without that authority, how can we determine if something is good? Yet we don't even realize when we go too far with that tyranny. Fuck it. I know I'm a product of it. I went to preschool. I went to a fucking private catholic elementary school. I go to a fucking catholic high school, all boy to boot! I'm probably going to go to a private college, maybe even catholic there too! I know, this makes me a fucking hypocrite. I hate hypocrites, they're the worst, and I fall to being one myself. I'm not writing this for myself though. I don't know how to break away from society. I try, everything except physically pulling myself out (partially true, I tried leaving once, but I knew that I couldn't support myself, it's because we value our physical selves over our intellectual, spiritual, emotional, or psychological selves... sadly). I'm writing this with the hope that someone gets this. That we can truly leave the box. Maybe you, the reader, can find the way to free yourself from conformity. Is it possible? I hope so. I hope that I can experience freedom before I die. Right now though, I'm writing a letter apologizing for certain actions... then I have to finish some homework and study for a test. I have to fall back in line. I hope you don't have to do the same.

I'm an optimist, I try to see the best in things. Good luck on your journey to the real.

Homework

This is an email I got from my dad. I'll be adding some of my own thoughts on it in a bit.

Some schools are cutting back on homework

When is homework just busywork? Weighing stress against learning, some districts are cutting back on academic work outside the classroom.

By Seema Mehta
March 22, 2009

Rachel Bennett, 12, loves playing soccer, spending time with her grandparents and making jewelry with beads. But since she entered a magnet middle school in the fall -- and began receiving two to four hours of homework a night -- those activities have fallen by the wayside.

"She's only a kid for so long," said her father, Alex Bennett, of Silverado Canyon. "There's been tears and frustration and family arguments. Everyone gets burned out and tired."

Bennett is part of a vocal movement of parents and educators who contend that homework overload is robbing children of needed sleep and playtime, chipping into family dinners and vacations and overly stressing young minds. The objections have been raised for years but increasingly, school districts are listening. They are banning busywork, setting time limits on homework and barring it on weekends and over vacations.

"Groups of parents are going to schools and saying, 'Get real. We want our kids to have a life,' " said Cathy Vatterott, an associate education professor at the University of Missouri-St. Louis, who has studied the issue.

Trustees in Danville, Calif., eliminated homework on weekends and vacations last year. Palo Alto officials banned it over winter break. Officials in Orange, where Rachel Bennett attends school, are reminding teachers about limits on homework and urging them not to assign it on weekends. A private school in Hollywood has done away with book reports.

"As adults, if every book we ever read, we had to write a report on -- would that encourage our reading or discourage it?" asked Eileen Horowitz, head of school at Temple Israel of Hollywood Day School. "We realized we needed to rethink that."

Nancy Ortenberg is happy about the change.

"Homework is much more meaningful now," said Ortenberg, whose daughter Isabelle, 9, was in school before the policy took effect in 2007. Before the change, it was a chore for her daughter, but "now she reads for the pure joy of reading."

Homework was once hugely controversial. In the late 1800s and early 1900s, social commentators and physicians crusaded against it, convinced it was causing children to become wan, weak and nervous.

In a 1900 article titled "A National Crime at the Feet of American Parents" in the Ladies' Home Journal, editor Edward Bok wrote, "When are parents going to open their eyes to this fearful evil? Are they as blind as bats, that they do not see what is being wrought by this crowning folly of night study?"

California was at the vanguard of the anti-homework movement. In 1901, the California Legislature banned it for students under 15 and ordered high schools to limit it for older students to 20 recitations a week. The law was taken off the books in 1917.

Homework has fallen in and out of favor ever since, often viewed as a force for good when the nation feels threatened -- after the Soviets launched Sputnik in 1957, for example, and during competition with Japan in the 1980s.

The homework wars have reignited in recent years, with parents around the nation arguing that children are being given too much.

Much of the debate is driven by the belief that today's students are doing more work at home than their predecessors. But student surveys do not bear that out, said Brian Gill, a senior social scientist with Mathematica Policy Research.

Instead, in today's increasingly competitive race for college admission, student schedules are increasingly packed with clubs, sports and other activities in addition to homework, Gill said. Students -- and parents -- may just have less time, he said.

Not all object, however.

"Obviously we want to think it's busywork, but most of the time it's really helpful," said Allison Hall, 16, a junior at Villa Park High in the Orange district. Allison, who is taking five Advanced Placement classes, has up to three hours of homework a night; she also is on the cross country, track and mock trial teams and does volunteer work.

But others say there is just too much, especially for younger children. Karen Adnams of Villa Park has four children. She said that heavier course loads make sense for older children but that she doesn't understand the amount of work given in lower grades.

"I think teachers have lost touch with what a third-grader or a fifth-grader can really do," she said.

Vatterott, a former principal, said she became interested in the subject a decade ago as a frustrated parent. Her son, who has a learning disability, was upset by assignments he didn't understand and couldn't complete in a reasonable time.

She decided to study the effectiveness of homework. That research showed that more time spent on such work was not necessarily better.

Vatterott questioned the quantity and the quality of assignments. If 10 math problems could demonstrate a child's grasp of a concept, why assign 50, she asked? The solution, she said, was not to do away with homework but to clarify the reasons for assigning it.

Some schools, among them Grant Elementary in Glenrock, Wyo., have gone further. Principal Christine Hendricks had grown concerned that students were spending too much time on busywork and that homework was causing conflicts between parents and children and between teachers and students. So she got rid of it last year except for reading and studying for tests.

"My philosophy, even when I was a teacher, is if you work hard during the day, I don't like to work at night. Kids are kind of the same way," she said.

Other districts, including San Ramon Valley Unified in Danville, Calif., have taken a more nuanced approach.

Since San Ramon revised its homework policy last year, the youngest students are given no more than 30 minutes a night; high school students have up to three hours of work. District trustees also decided that aside from reading, no homework should be given to elementary and middle school students on weekends or vacations.

In the Orange Unified School District, trustee John Ortega grew concerned about the workload carried by his middle school daughter. "We would have a swim meet all weekend, and she would be worried about coming home and having to finish homework," he said. "She was stressed about it."

After speaking with other parents, Ortega raised the subject publicly in the fall, prompting a series of discussions in the district. It turned out that although the board had set limits on homework, they were not always followed, said Marsha Brown, assistant superintendent of educational services. She said teachers have now been informed about the policy and principals are working to clarify the purpose of homework.

Brown said children's social growth must be nurtured alongside their academic development. "We don't want just academic children. We want them involved in sports and music and art and family time and downtime," she said. "We want well-rounded citizens. I think we will always be struggling with that balance."

International Sai Moe League 2009

So, I know that pretty much no one reads this, but I figure I need all the help I can get these next few months, so the off chance that you'll do what I ask is of great help!

The International Sai Moe League is a league dedicated to determining the most moe character in anime. what is moe? Pronounced mo'ay. It's like a profound respect for an extremely cute character.

So, how can you help? Well, it just so happens that I'm a fan of the extremely moe character Ibuki Fūko from the shows Clannad and Clannad: After Story. She is a contestant in this competition. You can help by voting for her during each round! (Note: you have to make a total of 8 votes for each round, so other cool characters to vote for would be Evangeline McDowell, Anya Alstreim, Nagato Yuki, Suzumiya Haruhi, Aisaka Taiga, Louise Vallière, Sunohara Mei, Tōsaka Rin, Kōzuki Kallen, Saber, C.C., Sakagami Tomoyo, or Asahina Mikuru. If there is a conflict in the above list, remember that Ibuki Fūko comes first no matter what, and otherwise, you can see their pictures on the voting page, so you can decide for yourself who you think is cuter!) Also, you may want to look at the other contestants, I don't know all of them, and you may find someone you like or find interesting!

Where do you vote? right here: http://www.internationalsaimoe.com/voting/

Remember, vote for Ibuki Fūko. If you need a little more convincing, search some fan vids on youtube, or watch the tv shows yourself! Clannad comes before After Story (kinda obvious, but figured I'd say it just in case) After the first 9 episodes of Clannad, you'll understand why she is such a lovable character, and you just might want to help her during the entire Sai Moe tournament!

Thanks for your support, it means a lot to me!

Vote for Fuko!!

MAL Post again, b/c I'm bored, and some more stuff?

So I'm noticing now that MAL has gotten HUGE. I remember (and gosh, I sound sooo old because I don't think I've even been on MAL for a year... yeah I know, would that be considered Irony? I digress...) when the largest clubs had just reached 1000 members. Now we've got clubs well over 1000 and not even in the top ten? When did this happen?? how did this happen? Well yeah, simple answer, more people joined MAL. I'm not complaining, just commenting. Although I do feel a little outta the loop because this kinda just sprung up on me. I guess that's my fault for not being as active as I could be... On to more important issues: I'm now 8 for 8 on colleges (I only applied to 8). yay me! now it's time for the hardest part: making a decision. I've gotten scholarships from some, but not all. I still need to visit a few... it'll be an interesting month coming up. hopefully for the better.

Also, I thank Jackson for sending me that one Silversun pick ups song. I didn't like it at first, but it's really grown on me, and now it's just friggin awesome! I must listen to them more... Right now though, I'm going through random Justice youtube vids. another awesome band. Justice = amazing, no other way to put it.

On the college front: I'm 8 for 8. yay me! now I have to decide where I'm going... no pressure haha!

A friend and I want to make a Hydro Thunder movie. It's going to be epic. details as they come.

I qualled to state in impromptu for speech and debate. I kinda didn't want to, but I did... whatevs.

I just received an email telling me that the assignment that my econ teacher had accidentally made due tomorrow at 11 am he moved to 11 pm. thank you.

I just made the connection that I'm using the same email address for this as the one I gave most colleges, so if you happen to be from a college and reading this, I'm having a tough time making my decision because so many schools seem to want me. give me a full ride and that will make the decision making much easier :D well, it's worth the try anyway...

I'm hopefully having a practice with a band that just formed a few weeks ago. It'll be cool, a kind of soft rock jazz fusion. I dig it. We're gonna be pretty good for the next few months we get the chance to play / record.

a lot of these thoughts are coming to me as I write them. I'm taking short breaks between writing to click on the next vid on youtube. playlist is much better for music listening, but I'm gonna stick with youtube for the heck of it.

school's fine I guess.

I'm tired, I should probably go to sleep. I will in a little bit.

I read a bunch of fmylife.com makes for very good times. hilarity ensued, I was entertained.

I think my break from life has ended and I need to step back into reality for a little bit. see ya there!

Am I on the list?

"Viva la libertad -- A Friend."

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So this weekends concludes my time on the national circuit of debate. whoa depressing. I dunno, Berkeley was supposed to be my tournament, everything was set up right. It's the right kind of judging pool, and pretty easy competition for the large most part. yeah I purposely wrote large most, not an accident, totally meant to over emphasize... So anyway, yeah, basically I did not do nearly as well as I should have at pretty much any of the tournaments I went to this year. Everything was a strugg. I'm pretty sure the only conclusion can be that I suck but w/e. The worst part is definitely that I wasted sooo much of my life trying to be somewhat successful at this activity... wow epic fail. struggs mansion with no hopes of redemption. so toc is completely out of the question. I'll do my best to make nats though. At least that way I can pull the qualling 4 times to nats, while not seeming like all that much of an accomplishment b/c I go in a pretty easy category, I'd still be one of about a dozen kids a year to do that.

on a lighter note, our coach got stuck in the wet mud for a bit and another coach had to use his Minnesota skills to get us out. that was a great team bonding experience pushing the car out...

I should probably go to sleep...

Reminder

Yeah, so I'm actually using this to remind myself that I need to bring a $15 check to school next Tuesday for my music appreciation class. I hope it's not for being allowed to use the computers... b/c I'm not really using the computers much. I'm using my own laptop... (not a mac fan, my Toshiba is just TOO B-E-A-Utiful

whoa you can put a title?! I'm so dumb... (warning, HUGE Post)

So I said I'd be putting up a more legit post right? Well, I have profile on a different site that I treat like a pseudo blog, so I guess I can post that stuff here too and it'll be a record of different stuff. I know that some things there I wish I had saved, but w/e, I can continue that here...
so here it is:

Ok, it has been almost For-Ev-Er (Sandlot reference ftw) since I've changed this. ANYWAY So, for January, the seniors at my school have an EPIC community service project. And, well, for those of you that didn't already know, I'm a senior. So I had an EPIC community service project. Yeah, that's logic for ya, haha. So I did my project at an awesome place. It is a school and a home for children who are wards of the state, for the most part anyway. A majority of the children there have some sort of learning disability or suffer from some trauma of some sort like their parents used to abuse them. They have pretty sad stories. But, the school is a great place for them because they live in a safe environment and they get lots of care and much needed attention. So I was like a TA while I was there. I helped grade things, I helped the kids with their classwork. I went to PE with them. It was great times. (btw, the kids were junior high level ish). So some of the kids were intense into Yu-Gi-Oh the card game. Oh and also, I was with one of my buds from school during the whole thing. So anyway, the kids got US into playing with our OWN cards!! haha! It's like a renewal or something. It's refreshing to just be a little kid again and bicker about life points. haha! So I pulled together my old cards. I never actually had a deck, just a bunch of cards. I didn't duel much, just collected. But I spent an afternoon putting together my old cards to a fatass deck that doesn't entirely work together, but it's not too bad haha! So I've actually been playing again for the past couple weeks. I'm thinking of getting the dino rage deck so I can continue playing with my buds every now and then.

Beyond the whole Yu-Gi-Oh bit though, the entire experience was awesome. I learned about a marginalized part of out community that we don't hear about too often, but they're members that really need our care and attention. They're great kids, and I know I'll visit them every now and then. I actually saw one of them last night when I went to the movie theaters. It was pretty cool running into him. I know they'll grow up to be great people... tear jerker. I know... although, I'm not great at wording it to be a tear jerker... haha! yeah, the haha didn't help. So anyway, until next time! peace!

Wow, that was a lot...

Should I update you on how life has been? Why not? Well, I'm sure there are plenty of reasons why not... like almost no one will be reading this and I'm just wasting my life away typing it, but I guess that just means I'll do it anyway...

Well, I'm pretty bored most of the time. I'm a little low on the whole motivation thing right now. I'm pretty sure it's that whole senioritis deal... Although, I've had it for over a year now, it's kicking into full gear, and by doing so, slowing me to a stop. I'm pretty sure that last sentence is grammatically incorrect... >.> So anyway, I'm not sure what I should do right now. I don't mean right now right now, but just now. Like, what am I gonna do in general? Am I going to be a total slack off? no, I'm not like that... But, at the same time, few things interest me. However, the few things that do interest me, I'm really interested in. I guess only time will tell. I understand why the entertainment industry does so well, though. I just want an escape. I'm always wondering how my life could be better, cooler, more fun. Imagine, what if your life were like a fantasy? What if you were a vampire? You were stronger than anyone, and you had that dark sexayness going on... bamf! wow, I'm such a kid... haha! You know you've thought about something like that though! Everyone has! What if you were a superhero? What if you were the next speed racer? Something like that. We all have those dreams (day dreams... haha). But what of them? I know I'm not a vampire and won't be one... (Although... haha!) But what are we supposed to do when we think of that? Is it really just ephemeral entertainment? Random imaginations? Are we supposed to do anything about it? Does it mean something significant?

Wow, total significance... ok, mind just jumped again. I am completely random, but not really, because this is a flow of thoughts all linked together, just none of them are finishing themselves. Ok so talk on significance. I've thought about this a BUNCH and talked about it a little... So anyway. What if everything we do and all the relations we have with others lead to some total purpose? What if all my experiences were designed to make me the person I am at this very moment, typing these words exactly as I do for a specific purpose? What if I am typing this just so that you read it and take a certain influence from it that only you would take because of all the experiences you've had? What if this experience of me writing this and you reading this shape you a little more into who you need to be for the key moment when you influence another? Like say you react to this and you're really interested and you're supposed to talk to a friend who thinks about it some more and adds to this theory so that we may find out what that total purpose is. What if your friend has that specific doormat in front of their house because someone was influenced a certain way to design it like they did, and your friend's parents were influenced by their life to buy it just so that you could laugh at it when you first saw it and remember as I type this. Or any other similar experience. I remember my Religion and Science Class. We talked about different scientific theories that suggest a creator. Well, in that line, there was a critique of the theory of evolution. Yeah, that hugely popular belief. One great argument is irreducible complexity, the idea that a complex system can not have evolved from something else. Makes total sense actually. While evolution may explain how we are now, it is reallly bad at telling us how we started, how life started. One of the leading examples is the flagella. You see, it requires about 40 different parts, without any one of them, it simply would not function. Now, evolution is based on function, a tail that was useless would die off and never evolve, the problem is then that the first cells of life would ahve to put together 40 different parts in perfect order. Now the likely hood of that? (I know, it seems like I'm totally random again, but I'm about to tie it back into what I was talking about right.... now.) Well, it might not be as slim as we thought... The response to the "ridiculousness" of such a slim odd is simple: rules. There are certain rules this universe follows, and you can't break them, simple as that. For example, only certain molecules will bond with certain other molecules, and only so many will make up a compound. Water will only be H2O, nothing else. Now, given time, inevitably, following the universe's great rules, the atoms, simply following those rules, collided the only way they knew how and created irreducible complexity. (For those of you greatly interested in the debate over the existence of a creator, understand that I didn't just disprove the existence of a god, I just suggested a response to a good argument that undermines evolution, to an extent. I'm not debating the existence of a creator, but theorizing the potential of a plan.) Now how does all of that tie in? So, what if everything we're doing is just following rules? What if the rules of the universe are so fine tuned that the molecules in my head are colliding in such a way to produce these thoughts of typing these words just to influence other molecules in your eyes so that you read these words and they turn around and bump into other things to create a specific thought process in your mind. What if there is some plan that these rules will fulfill. What if there is no plan, but these rules just create a kind of universe machine that perpetuates forward. What if... yeah... what if? And, if this is true, what does that mean about us? Are we significant in that we perpetuate a universe machine? Are we insignificant as simply a tiny influence of a greater picture? Are we significant becuase without our tiny influence the greater picture would fall apart? Are we all keystone species of a universal existence? What would the implications of this be?

Of course, all of this relies on many different assumptions, like thoughts are generated by molecules in our heads. And that's fine, I'm not trying to preach to everyone that I've discovered the meaning of life (haha...) just suggesting something I've found interesting for a long while now...

Wow, this post is wayy to long. Haha, and I didn't really update you on anything that's happened in my life... wow...

Whoa... small

AND HUGE!!

just havin' some fun with the different stuff

Koo
I like Courier, but this one looks a little italicized

Trebuchet


Webdings!!! wait, what? this is webdings? rip...

Verdana's nice...

o cool, I can do colors too

Yay Colors

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Wow, I must be a really boring blogger... Legit post to come.

1st post

ok so I guess I was supposed to do this yesterday, but I fell asleep :P

So now I have a blog. Mostly because Jackson just randomly suggested I should have one. I honestly have little to no idea what I'm gonna put up here, which I guess pretty much proves I'll eventually tell you all the meaning of life. haha, I say you all as if people will read this. So I guess I could explain a little about myself? or I could just leave you guessing, which seems like so much more fun. I'm really tired right now, but I usually am... by now, I have just decided that I'll type random stuff and wonder how long it will take me to get back to the homework I need to do. Oh, the Steelers won the Superbowl. w/e didn't care too much about this one since my Chargers lost. We had a good season, being the surprise and all. Although I guess our surprise was knocked out by the Cardinals' playing the Superbowl. well, guess I should go now? I'm suer I'll be back later to post more randomness. til then, have fun. and hopefully you have fun during and after then too.