So I said I'd be putting up a more legit post right? Well, I have profile on a different site that I treat like a pseudo blog, so I guess I can post that stuff here too and it'll be a record of different stuff. I know that some things there I wish I had saved, but w/e, I can continue that here...
so here it is:
Ok, it has been almost For-Ev-Er (Sandlot reference ftw) since I've changed this. ANYWAY So, for January, the seniors at my school have an EPIC community service project. And, well, for those of you that didn't already know, I'm a senior. So I had an EPIC community service project. Yeah, that's logic for ya, haha. So I did my project at an awesome place. It is a school and a home for children who are wards of the state, for the most part anyway. A majority of the children there have some sort of learning disability or suffer from some trauma of some sort like their parents used to abuse them. They have pretty sad stories. But, the school is a great place for them because they live in a safe environment and they get lots of care and much needed attention. So I was like a TA while I was there. I helped grade things, I helped the kids with their classwork. I went to PE with them. It was great times. (btw, the kids were junior high level ish). So some of the kids were intense into Yu-Gi-Oh the card game. Oh and also, I was with one of my buds from school during the whole thing. So anyway, the kids got US into playing with our OWN cards!! haha! It's like a renewal or something. It's refreshing to just be a little kid again and bicker about life points. haha! So I pulled together my old cards. I never actually had a deck, just a bunch of cards. I didn't duel much, just collected. But I spent an afternoon putting together my old cards to a fatass deck that doesn't entirely work together, but it's not too bad haha! So I've actually been playing again for the past couple weeks. I'm thinking of getting the dino rage deck so I can continue playing with my buds every now and then.
Beyond the whole Yu-Gi-Oh bit though, the entire experience was awesome. I learned about a marginalized part of out community that we don't hear about too often, but they're members that really need our care and attention. They're great kids, and I know I'll visit them every now and then. I actually saw one of them last night when I went to the movie theaters. It was pretty cool running into him. I know they'll grow up to be great people... tear jerker. I know... although, I'm not great at wording it to be a tear jerker... haha! yeah, the haha didn't help. So anyway, until next time! peace!
Wow, that was a lot...
Should I update you on how life has been? Why not? Well, I'm sure there are plenty of reasons why not... like almost no one will be reading this and I'm just wasting my life away typing it, but I guess that just means I'll do it anyway...
Well, I'm pretty bored most of the time. I'm a little low on the whole motivation thing right now. I'm pretty sure it's that whole senioritis deal... Although, I've had it for over a year now, it's kicking into full gear, and by doing so, slowing me to a stop. I'm pretty sure that last sentence is grammatically incorrect... >.> So anyway, I'm not sure what I should do right now. I don't mean right now right now, but just now. Like, what am I gonna do in general? Am I going to be a total slack off? no, I'm not like that... But, at the same time, few things interest me. However, the few things that do interest me, I'm really interested in. I guess only time will tell. I understand why the entertainment industry does so well, though. I just want an escape. I'm always wondering how my life could be better, cooler, more fun. Imagine, what if your life were like a fantasy? What if you were a vampire? You were stronger than anyone, and you had that dark sexayness going on... bamf! wow, I'm such a kid... haha! You know you've thought about something like that though! Everyone has! What if you were a superhero? What if you were the next speed racer? Something like that. We all have those dreams (day dreams... haha). But what of them? I know I'm not a vampire and won't be one... (Although... haha!) But what are we supposed to do when we think of that? Is it really just ephemeral entertainment? Random imaginations? Are we supposed to do anything about it? Does it mean something significant?
Wow, total significance... ok, mind just jumped again. I am completely random, but not really, because this is a flow of thoughts all linked together, just none of them are finishing themselves. Ok so talk on significance. I've thought about this a BUNCH and talked about it a little... So anyway. What if everything we do and all the relations we have with others lead to some total purpose? What if all my experiences were designed to make me the person I am at this very moment, typing these words exactly as I do for a specific purpose? What if I am typing this just so that you read it and take a certain influence from it that only you would take because of all the experiences you've had? What if this experience of me writing this and you reading this shape you a little more into who you need to be for the key moment when you influence another? Like say you react to this and you're really interested and you're supposed to talk to a friend who thinks about it some more and adds to this theory so that we may find out what that total purpose is. What if your friend has that specific doormat in front of their house because someone was influenced a certain way to design it like they did, and your friend's parents were influenced by their life to buy it just so that you could laugh at it when you first saw it and remember as I type this. Or any other similar experience. I remember my Religion and Science Class. We talked about different scientific theories that suggest a creator. Well, in that line, there was a critique of the theory of evolution. Yeah, that hugely popular belief. One great argument is irreducible complexity, the idea that a complex system can not have evolved from something else. Makes total sense actually. While evolution may explain how we are now, it is reallly bad at telling us how we started, how life started. One of the leading examples is the flagella. You see, it requires about 40 different parts, without any one of them, it simply would not function. Now, evolution is based on function, a tail that was useless would die off and never evolve, the problem is then that the first cells of life would ahve to put together 40 different parts in perfect order. Now the likely hood of that? (I know, it seems like I'm totally random again, but I'm about to tie it back into what I was talking about right.... now.) Well, it might not be as slim as we thought... The response to the "ridiculousness" of such a slim odd is simple: rules. There are certain rules this universe follows, and you can't break them, simple as that. For example, only certain molecules will bond with certain other molecules, and only so many will make up a compound. Water will only be H2O, nothing else. Now, given time, inevitably, following the universe's great rules, the atoms, simply following those rules, collided the only way they knew how and created irreducible complexity. (For those of you greatly interested in the debate over the existence of a creator, understand that I didn't just disprove the existence of a god, I just suggested a response to a good argument that undermines evolution, to an extent. I'm not debating the existence of a creator, but theorizing the potential of a plan.) Now how does all of that tie in? So, what if everything we're doing is just following rules? What if the rules of the universe are so fine tuned that the molecules in my head are colliding in such a way to produce these thoughts of typing these words just to influence other molecules in your eyes so that you read these words and they turn around and bump into other things to create a specific thought process in your mind. What if there is some plan that these rules will fulfill. What if there is no plan, but these rules just create a kind of universe machine that perpetuates forward. What if... yeah... what if? And, if this is true, what does that mean about us? Are we significant in that we perpetuate a universe machine? Are we insignificant as simply a tiny influence of a greater picture? Are we significant becuase without our tiny influence the greater picture would fall apart? Are we all keystone species of a universal existence? What would the implications of this be?
Of course, all of this relies on many different assumptions, like thoughts are generated by molecules in our heads. And that's fine, I'm not trying to preach to everyone that I've discovered the meaning of life (haha...) just suggesting something I've found interesting for a long while now...
Wow, this post is wayy to long. Haha, and I didn't really update you on anything that's happened in my life... wow...
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